Complicated

Todae a sms shocked me up from my sleep . Though i slept ard 3am last night, i couldnt carry on my lazy sleep after i read this sms at 10am. A friend has just broken with her bf for 4 years. All i can say is that: " Love does not only involve the two parties , but also involve the two families. " Because of family's disapproval, this love birds gotta separate. *sigh* just hope they can find the right person in future.

Oh well , yesterday celebrated my bf's grandma 68th birthday at his uncle's house. Was a great celebration ... imagine the whole apartment packed with 22 grandchildren, 24 adults ? It was a joyous occasion, could see grandma beaming with smiles all the while. Guess it's the kind of family i wish to have in future cos i came from a small family, with 2 uncles and 1 auntie from both my parents side. however, try to stay away from politics !!!! Haha ....

Yeah ... CNY is coming ! Been doing some spring cleaning now n then ! Gng to get new year clothes soon ....

A mistake

School started last week - was quite a "empty" week except Tuesday which was my 14 hrs lab day ! But i was rather happy since my FYP lab is 80% completed, now only left with some sample characterization and a conceptual model design. Started on some parts of the report, somehow dun feel like doing it, still procrastinating things as days go by.

Haiz ...these few weeks, i've been bothered abt some stuff - An old friend was sacrificed for a new one. I guessed the reason must be i've spent too much time on the new friend ( labelled 'B') and has neglected this old friend ('A'). Somehow over some period of time, A drifted apart. I've always been talking about treasuring friends etc., but this has proved me wrong. In the end, i 'lost' both friends. I know i might have hurt A badly in a way; failed my part as a friend. Anyway, i just wish the two of them to be jovial everyday. No matter what happens, once a friend, always a friend .

Can things just stay the same ?

Life's so unpredictable ...

Recently, a well-known Actor, also a deejay in local radio station, passed away suddenly during his sleep. This news really came as a shock; I almost thought it was a joke when i heard it from a family member. Who could believe a 40 years old, full of zeal and optimistic person could just passed away without any illness. I have just read his blog, and i believe Jimmy Nah has reached his defined paradise. This is what he mentioned in his personal data :

"喜欢戏剧，喜欢表演，也喜欢摄影。

一只从不屈服的“蟑螂”，生命力很强。

曾被“遗弃”了一段时间；现在却卷土从来，努力奋斗。

可就是不断有“小人”的出现；就当成挑战吧。"

It really makes me wonder .... what'll happen when the day i am gone from this world ? Will my friends mourn for me as a real friend or just come for the mourning just because he/she has to come ? Life's so unpredictable , no one knows when his/her time will be up , what i am sure of is to cherish the people around me, and also to live everyday to the fullest as i do not want any regrets to follow me to the other world. Life's is funny too ~ one would only realize regrets only when damage has been done. 22 years of life, i do have some regrets which i could never turn back the time and change the history. But i am blessed to have good friends who are always there for me in times of needs. Though at times, i may say things which are redundant but please understand where i am coming from, i meant no harm. LOL.

Happi 2008 !

HAPPI NEW YEAR !!!!

I believe 2008 would be a blessed year ........ i shall live with no regrets & cherish every single person around me ........

Getaway @ Kukup

First let me introduce Kukup ... it's actually near Pontian, abt 60 km away from Johor (took abt 3hrs car ride). Basically, there are a lot of resorts by the sea, and nice sea food there. One resort bungalow, there are 4 rooms ( 8 beds each) and a huge living room furnished with mahjong tables and KTV system. The cost is about 75rm per person per day charge. It's a good place if u wanna get away from the bustling city life , to enjoy the sea breeze and the "kampong" lifestyle there.

For the 4 days there, i had enough of mahjong, KTV and seafood with Beer ; but lack of sleep . Imagine every night ended mahjong session @ 3am and waking up earli in the morning @ ard 7 plus ? Except for the lack of sleep, the days there were enjoyable especially the fishing session. First attempt and i've fished a Starfish . Took some pics with it and let it go , no point keepin it. The sun was so scorching hot , and a few hours spent @ the Kelong totally burnt me ! Haha .... Some tourists here actually tot i am a malay !!!! OMG .... gng to "whiten" myself soon ...

Back on X'mas eve evening. After bathing, we set off to my BF's uncle house. God ... his uncle acutally installed the KTV system , and we got to choose songs from a LCD monitor , just like any KTV providers. Haha now i know where to head to when i got the singing itch ! Waiting for X'mas countdown was a bad feeling since all of us were totally burnt out .... X'mas was spent with my grandma & bf. We drove to Changi Village to have dinner together ; A meaningful X'mas this year with my grandma's company.

Okay.. i am totally bashed ... but still got to return to LAB tmr ! *** sigh *** gng sleep , M3rry X'mas everyone ! & thanks to all the greetings ...

A super fulfilling week

Second week of holidays is coming to an end again ~ can i get a time machine or the power to stop time ? Been going to the lab for FYP for days , and the results arent satisfying; more or less gotta redo . Tmr gng to meet my dear Prof for discussion. ~~~ GOSH !

This week realli drained me off; packed with birthday parties and events. It started with my bf's birthday on Tuesday, planned a surprise for him. It's realli hard to get friends tgt during such parties, but i am thankful for those who turned up. Second would be my bf's sis 21st birthday yesterday. Helped out a bit with the catering stuffs & i realli enjoyed the mahjong session with his aunts , LOL i am beginning to behave like TAI TAIs (not AUNTIES k ). The last one would be a friend's birthday - a surprise house party todae. This is the most taxing party as i am the main organiser , coordinated with at least 3 batches of friends. At first, attendance was rather good with about 15 peeps coming. But todae ended up with the pathetic 4. Was realli disappointed to receive "cannot make it" msgs during the start of this week. Initially, wanted to give up the whole idea, but luckily, her mum was realli enthu with this surprise thingy and realli has been a good help. Hope all the above 3 birthday babies enjoyed themselves and be blessed for the upcoming year.

Talking about birthday surprises, i can be labelled as the "old bird" for such stuffs. House surprise parties i had done it 3 times as the main organiser - one for Sec friend , one for JC pal and today's. Afterall, each one turned out a success. It's a good feeling to see all your good friends coming tgt to celebrate one's birthday. It dun take great efforts to organise such events anway, juz need the network !!!! Haha.

Oh yeah .... Star Awards is here. Update again !

FYP sux !!!!

GOD GOD GOD ... yesterday spent a whole 14 hrs in the lab doing my FYP lab test ... Realli was tortue , and the scariest part being if i couldnt get the results i want, i gotta consider doing a 24 hrs run in the lab, taking a sample every 15 mins. Crazy man ~~~ May up above bless me =P

Been to the lab 5 days in the week, prepare for all the tests and doing new tests like characterizatin using SEM (scanning electronic microscope) .... hopefully my prof dun add in more tests for me ... Hee next week gng to take a day off to celebrate my bf's bdae .... hopefully he will enjoy the day with my planned programme ! Hee .... *cheeky****

Got so mani things on hands ... hopefully everything will goes off smoothly. Esp the FYP and the two events next week .... *praying realli hard* Gotta rest ... take care

Holiday month =)

(At the MIND Cafe with Year 1 clique)

(With Uni gals @ White Dog Cafe)

Wooooh .....

Exams finally over. Can really indulge in enjoyment without school works on mind =) Imagine having 4 papers in 2 weeks ??? Burning my brain cells only ... Hahaha but i did catch some entertainments along the way, to keep myself gng .... tt's the reasons why i gotta to finish all the movies in the month of NOV. Haha ...

Well.. yesterday after last paper, set off to Vivo to celebrate Qiaoli's belated birthday... after much ponder, the 8 of us set on WHITE DOG CAFE, guess must b the name that appeal to us ... the food there wasnt bad, quite unique and special - like what i had : Deepfried breaded beef with special marinated sauce ... though serving is moderate, taste was satisfying. Caught the movie "The Tattooist" ... a warning to those who hates seeing blood scene, please avoid that movie though the story plot is good ...

Todae spent a day at the MIND cafe at Princept street near Plaza Singapura, gotta try out alot of new boardgames ... it is really a fun place for a whole grp to hang out !!! Haha ... went to catch a movie after that - "30 days of night" , gosh .... it's like SAW episodes ... it wasnt scary, instead i found the plot laughable .... Hehe ...

Another day is gone .. two more days to enjoy before laying my hands on FYP ~~~ Dun wanna think abt it .... Haha take care friends ...

Mugging Mood ?!

(***Just love her SMILE )

Yipee ... officially ended school todae, no more school days for me ~ Hurray , realli can start preparing for exams, time to cultivate the right mood .. hopefully to start tmr ! Juz came back home for a movie with Lionel at JP , we watched "the game plan" .. .realli entertaining , always keep me laughing, and of course , clapping away .... Was celebrating with Lionel his belated birthday , i treated him to dinner and i got a movie treat from him .... haha a great deal in fact !

(***Meal at SUN with MOON)

Waa... another week would be the start of battle and the worse thing is .... no MOOD ! Flopped my 11 hrs run in the lab , gotta re-do the run again .. so sianz , but thanks to my understanding Professor Lim - stop lab session till exam ends ! He's a great professor =)

Hee ... last weekend went shopping at Orchard , realli miss the shopping experience and trying out of clothes ...spent a hundred bucks ! Hee had a nice meal at SUN with MOON (the Jap cafe) at Wheellocks place => fully recommended to try out the desserts ther , realli unique and unforgettable. Then on Sunday, had a great BBQ session at Laborator's Park, near to harbourfront centre., It's great to enjoy the windy atmosphere there , strong winds and peaceful ... juz sitting down ther, enjoying the beautiful sunset is nice ~~ But end up, i having sorethroat now ... haha bad !

(***Beautiful Sunset ... )

Okay , gng to bathe soon ~~~ Shall update again....

Yeah .. my new english composed song is out ! Haha .. got my inspirations from the journey which i have engaged in phases of life. Now left after exam for the filling of tune.

[Me, You, We]
Through these long winding roads

Which many has walked with me

Here I am, hiding in a corner

Seeking comfort in this long darkness

Finding someone to confide in

And there you are, walked in my life

Through these dark lonely nights

When nobody listens to my heartbeat

There I am, lying on the bed

Finding reasons to keep my battered faith

Looking back the lost memories

And there you are, smiling back at me

Chorus:

Would you still listen

Would you still understand

As days carry itself across the sky

Would you still care

Would you still remember

As memories erase itself over the past

Through these crowds of people

Whom I meet but seems distant

This is me, the one you know

Trying means to understand this crazy world

Calling back the lost you

And there you are, holding out your hands

Chorus

But I still remember ….. you.

Well well... projects are over soon & exams are round the corner, gotta have a gd rest before battling things out...of course not forgetting FYP lab this week and next week, since mani are not gng lab due to exam period, so i shall make full use of the lab ! LOL...****smart rite? Nowadays been hearing alot of conflicts between friends in their project groups * just the normal personalities clashes and also different thinkings. Luckily that din happen in my project grps. Cheers ~ cant wait to roam the streets this weekends !!!!

Dreadful Weeks ... before DOOM days !

Afterall, the dreadful week 11 is here, time to submit lots of reports and be prepared with all sorts of presentations. ***Hateful weeks !!!

Last weekends were spend staring at my laptop screen more than 12 hrs a day for compiling and checking of mistakes. The results of this ??? My eyes are now seeing white spot on watever things i see .. guess gotta rest is v impt now ! Heehe .. but thanks to my group members who helped me through the period, tasks are made easier and faster when everyone lends a hand ... the final report is finally done ! No more late nights for me ... Hurray ~~~

Next week is gng to be worse ~ 3 presentations consecutively : Prof communication presentation , follow by ID then IEM ! All are impt , esp Prof comm, it's 40% weightage sia .... Gotta buck up , but at least this weekend wont b so stressful for me le .. hehe shopping spree would be on again ....

Okay .. time for my eyes to rest le ... take care people , remember this : "don't do the wrong things for the right reasons !!!" read in depth ba !

Nightmare - Week 10 is here !!!!

Finally, this dreadful week is here. Week 10 onwards is gng to be busy weeks for me. For example, i juz had HRM quiz todae , next week ID project is due, surface water quiz, IEM report due and i have to prepare for Prof comm presentation .... gosh ~~~ Time Please go slower abit. One thing i am fortunate about is FYP progress report, dun have to submit a thick report, my prof just want my schedule plan !!! Hehe ..

well... lately been reading alot on portrait sketching and music notes ... dunno why, since i came back from China, i seem to fall in love with ARTS ... Haha ... mayb too many unhappy happenings went by and only arts world can accomodate me ... Have started writing english songs .. hopefully can complete it asap ... Wait patiently ba =)

Anyway, i gotta go do AUTOCAD drawings for ID report le ... take care ! Hang in ppl ... another 6 weeks and the sem will be over .. looking forward to it !!!!

Nice food @ Vivocity & Central...

Lately, I've been travelling to the above two shopping malls, to chill out and also to hunt for gifts .... Vivo Pacific Coffee Cafe is nice for studying and doing work using laptop ! Prepared to see me there when u go on weekends =) ahha ...

Yesterday, had a pampering session - had ramen at RamenTen at Harbourfront Centre, then had Ben n Jerry's waffle sundae, superb nice but i still prefer the one i had @ Coldstone Creamery ! Hehe .. gng to hunt down that stall here in SINGAPORE ...

Yeah~~~ my lab chemicals had arrived .. can start on the experiment soon , now still packin my column and setting up the column tests. My "baby" is gng to be borned in the lab ... Cant wait t0 start on it on Monday .... This weekend i am gng to pia hard for the ID proj, though Sat & Sun i has hrs of tui cos PSLE started on Wed and gng to end on the coming Monday .. which means i am gng to be jobless soon =( hahaha ....

take care guys, week9 is coming .....

End of term break ... =(

(****With the bdae gal, yanni on the right )

(On the left : Jianyi, Marg, Med, Xiaojun & Baoyun (front to back)
On the right : Cecelia, Hwee ling, Shuqing, Yanni, Me & qiaoli
Photographer: Mr Tuan Qiang )

Just couldn't believe it ~~~ The one week term break just ended in a flash of light, no time for myself. Except for sunday, when i was able to go for a haircut @ kimage , got a new hairstyle , though i am not used to looking at myself yet .. LOL.

Yesterday was Yanni's 22nd bdae, organised a surprise bdae celebration during the lessons break. Asked some friends to join us and lured yanni to jp for lunch. Thanks to all who managed to join us .. though abit last minute invitation. In the end, a total of 12 people gathered at pizzahut for lunch tgt. We bought a bdae cake and gave her a surprise through the help of the Pizzahut crews. I requested their help in gettting the cake prepared and led the bdae song singing .... it was fun ! Haha ... End up, we missed the HRM lecture (though nobodi was realli int to go in the first place).

Guessed this week i gonna battle my time in finishing my part of designing the wastewater treatment plants. Juz wanna finish it asap. God , please help me !!! Though i still have to get back to lab and do my experiment .... Arggggggg .. where do i find my time .... haha

God bless me ...

Hands busy in the LAB ...

It's been 3 days since i stayed 9 hrs daily in the ENV Lab for my FYP proj. Though most chemicals have not arrived yet, i can still start designing my column and to prepare the necessary stuffs. Poor Yanni, she gotta start preparing all the solutions ready for tests cos she do not need any column set-ups.

I spent two days pounding big pieces of charcoal into bits and then gotta do sieving All these poundings and sievings for days finally ended todae, now my two palms are swollen and reddish ! Gosh ... but was happy with the final product - ~300 micron diameter charcoal size. My hard works pay off ... Todae basically din do much after lunch. Cos was looking around for ideas to do my column set-up and also to get the necessary stuffs from the technician. Then i went to help Yanni. But in the end i could not do anything cos the chemical she needed was missing from the toxic chemical shelves, someone took it and din return ... So ended up could not do anything ...

These days in lab was rather fun, cos me n my FYP partner made some stupid mistakes here and there .. was rather entertaining.. so who says FYP is boring ? Haha juz tt it's realli TIRED and STRAINING !!!!!! Yeah .. tmr off-day, cos gotta go for the networking session in the evening till nite time. wonder how's the whole session would turn out ...

Been having dreams nowadays ... and someone would appear in it without fail in every dream .... guess this is realli "ri you suo si, ye you suo mong" .... when can i untie this knot in me ? *sigh*

K gng to do other projects le ...

Njoy the school term break ~~~~

NO Life LIFE

Juz realised it's been 6 days since i updated my blog ... cos realli nothing to be included here ...

Latest update : Marg is sick ! Haha ....

No la..todae juz had a quiz and a presentation. Seems like i am having my recess break from todae onwards since no much pressure. Currently working on FYP and ID projects ... hopefully the recess break would be spend meaningfully - to finish as much as possible , though i had realli packed my everyday piled up with works .. Hehe

Finally got Corrinne May's 3 albums from TQ recently .. Realli salute her singings ... Inspired me to write english songs .. - Will try to write a song out when i got the inspirations. FYP Lab starting soon, now juz waitin for the chemicals to be send in from the suppliers. Hopefully would be during the start of the recess .. and not towards the end !

Okay ... gotta relax myself le.. watching LIVE THE DREAMS now .. the dreamers realli know how to sing and live their dreams .... All the best, DREAMERs ! ! !

Busy life ...

(At imee's house - Wonderful view behind us !!! )

(The BBQ ingredients ...Making u drool ? ? ? Muahahaha)

This week've been rather busy ... similar to every other week .

Tuesday attended Exxon Mobil recruitment talk in the evening. It was a great talk in general, the speakers were interesting and full of passion - either it's real or juz pretence ? LOL. Anyway, i am quite interested in the job opportunities that the company provided; able to cross function over a range of scopes which i would realli like to try out ... esp business development. Hehe ... After the talk, went took pics with the usual cliches. Wanted to have the refreshments which were provided outside the LT, but the food was already filled to the brim on people's plate . Gosh ~~~Took quite a numbers of pics with Med, Xiaojun, Xiuye, Baoyun, Marg and Yanni. haha will pose up when i got the pics - the poses which we had were hilarious .

Wednesday was the busiest day of the week. After lessons in school, went for tui. After which, i rushed over to somerset Mrt stat to meet my SEC gang to go IMee's house at Bedok. Gosh .. it was a long ride on bus no. 14. Her condo was named "Costa del sol"; surrounded by rows of bangalows and condos. Took a few pics at her house. The view from her living room was magnificient with the seaview; juz opp her house would be East coast park - Bedok Jetty. WE had ard 3 hrs of BBQ session,and i was labelled as the "Fire starter queen" cos the rest do not know how to start Fire ! Gals... it's gd to learn this little skill. dun b too dependent on GUYS ! Haha . After the hearty spread, we walked over to Bedok jetty, enjoyed the sea breeze . Left her house ard 10.30pm, took a cab home- was juz too tired.



Thursday was the "Sick" day for me. Too tired..and was feeling restless. Haha. Boring day at sch...



Todae is the best .. NO school or rather i ponned one lecture. Haha. Planning to have a gd rest todae ... both my mental and physical states need a a gd rest ! Lol. Though some matters stil bother me alot. Juz cant make a decisive move. Noone can help me besides myself =( .

Too drained for anything ....

As the title implied ~i 'm juz too drained to do anything. Got tt super exhausted feeling, somehow felt like "bursting" but a pity, i am not a balloon. Haha ... Took a long nap in the afternoon, feeling more nua NOW -- cant do anything constructive at all ... HAHA

Everyday, 7-10pm is the fav period of the day, my eyes would b on the tv drama on channel 8.

7pm: "Qing You Ke Yuan" , a lively love drama series ... i guess i'm in love with the character HERMAN aka Haoxiang ... he's so cute , don't he ? Haha ... i love the way he smile , that kind of sincere perfect smile ... Haha ...

9pm: "Like Father Like Daughter", i love Joanne Peh character !!!! She've style ... Haha .. juz love the way she protray the image of a gangstress ! Seem so natural =P ...

At night, gng to do FYP literature review report ... wonder when will i ever finish it ??? Headache .. tmr i m gng to take the DAY off juz for pure entertainment ... might b shopping till my pocket burn hole .... HAha or might write inspirational songs ? LOL. Who noes ....

Week 6's coming !!!!

Day's out with Birdie

Met up with Bir at Shaw Lido ... it's been like almost a year since the two of us went out tgt ... normally met during gathering but todae had a chance to meet up - Just the two of us ! Haha ... We shopped ard Isetan while waiting for our movie timing, decided to watch Ratatouille at 4.30pm.

The show was not as fantastic as i tot it was ... same as License to Wed . Mayb i already had too high expectations on the shows before watching it . Thanks Bir for accompanying to watch , cos she already watched it in the US. Haha .. caught her falling aslp twice. Haha ... After that we had our dinner at pepperlunch. Hey .. the hamburger steak is nice, the beef steak was not tough at all, tasted special esp with the gravy.

After dinner, we decided to shop ard Orchard area .. walked around Wheellocks place and Taka .. and i saw lots of clothes which caught my eyes , gng to save up before i get them home !!! Haha ... As we walked, we chatted ... it was a comfortable feeling to be with her ... Though we almost knew each other for 10 years, it seemed like we juz met yesterday . Haha ... the bond between us was built on many obstacles we had over the past . With her, we could chat about everything ... nuttin seems to be secret ... LOL... Anyway, we call each other "Bir" which is abbreviation for BIRDIE , cos in sec days, we always like to crap ... haha ...

Cant wait to meet up with them next week !!! The 3 of us have planned to do sth stupid next WED ... Haa ... shall update again =P

一首简单的歌。。。

Hey hey ... todae had a nice dinner with Imee at Marina's Lerk Thai .. ordered a few dishes - which includes pandan leave chicken (Superb tasty) , Tom Yam noodle soup (S0-s0) , Vietnamese Spring Roll (So-so) & Pineapple rice (Thumbs down) . Haha ... ate until both of us could not take it ... too full ! The meal was also accompanied by thai ice tea ... which is much better than ice milk tea. After meal, we chatted alot . Wondereed how we became gd friends, how diff we are in character etc . All i can say that .. friendships are so amazing, it could actualli link two people up no matter of likes/ dislikes . Friends gotta accept u as who u are and like u as who u r ! Haha

Oh .. i am FREE .. from all the problems within me . Finally sorted things out, and i finally can say i starting to understand her... todae no sch .. so i juz spent the whole mrng and afternoon sitting at a corner at home and i wrote this song ....

《回忆就是答案》

-作词：Qifeng

想问为什么

从那天说再见起

一切都变了

如乌云覆盖天空

情绪不停在转动

想问为什么

你始终保持沉默

不想做回应

从此我心变沉重

把回忆埋藏在我心中

想问为什么

你已不在我身边

陪我一起笑

如有裂痕的镜子

从此看不到笑容

想问为什么

你喜欢上了孤独

不需要陪伴

从此一个人生活

让你的歌声陪伴着我

Chorus

还记得

你所爱的人物

你常唱的歌曲

你疯狂的笑声

难道你忘了吗

还想念

你逛街的心情

你认真的表情

你骂人的神情

一切我还记得

（Repeat）

一切的为什么

会跟随着时间

慢慢地变成回忆。。。

还是会在夜里想起。。。