I guess i was just too hurt by the words / actions from a friend whom i thought would be a worthy one ; someone who will stand by me no matter what. But i was wrong ... i had never felt so bad before, not even with my jie meis. Perhaps it just my one-sided feeling in this friendship .... It's time to move on and leave this "friendship" behind. I have been HURT , to think that my tears even rolled down uncontrollably whenever i thought of the words/ scenes.
Like a song by Corrine May ....
"Losing myself
Gaining it back againForging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand
Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see"
I guess i can never commit myself in this friendship ... cos i just feel that that friend does not deserve to be a true friend of mine....!